I’m Desperate!


This word is most often used to describe a state of being that implies great need, hopelessness or despair that leads to rash behavior.

Desperation is a state I usually try to avoid. For me I have long thought of desperation in terms of discomfort, dependence and defeat. I realize now, that I’ve been short sighted where desperation is concerned.

We’ve all been desperate at one time or another. Maybe you have been desperate for love, attention, forgiveness, truth or freedom. Perhaps you have been desperate for money, a job, for food, or shelter. Regardless of the end result, most of us have found ourselves desperate at one point in our lives.

When was the last time you were desperate for God? Not just for what God offers you, but for God Himself?

Honestly, for me it has been longer than I care to admit.

Last week I had the privilege of writing for Speaking of Truth.com. In my post titled, Revolution of the Heart I shared my desire for a holy overthrow of my heart. I have to be honest and say that those were really scary words to write. For me, those words were the equivalent of picking a fight with the school bully. I knew once those words had spilled from my lips that it was going to be “game on”.

Despite the fear and doubt, I have finally come to a place within myself where I am desperate to hear from God, a place where I am willing to relinquish my list of requests and demands and simply seek God.

So what is it about desperation that makes us squirm and wiggle as if trying to nail Jello to a tree?

I submit, it is because when we are desperate, we have finally come to the end of ourselves. We put aside our self-sufficiency, pride and our own agendas and surrender our hearts to being present and available to God.

We live in a fast paced world. We spend our day’s multi tasking and consolidating in order to be efficient and effective. Our hearts are stirred up and swirling, like a jar of river water. As long as the water is stirred up there is no peace and no clarity. When we allow our hearts to sit long enough for the sediment and busyness of life to settle, we can begin to hear the whispers of the one who knows us, who loves us and who created us to be in fellowship with Him.

What would happen if we were desperate to be still and allowed the sediment of our hearts to settle and the clarity of Jesus resurrected life to shine in and through us?

What does it look like to allow our hearts to settle?

Taking a few moments at the beginning or end of the day to simply thank God for who He is – His character – His nature – His holiness.
• Selecting a verse of scripture and meditate on it. Allow yourself the luxury of listening to what God has to say to you through His word.
• Participate in a fast. From facebook, TV, junk food – whatever it is that distracts you from spending some quiet moments with God.
• Find a reading plan for Lent and commit to reading and reflecting on Gods word through Easter.
• Sit and listen to some quiet music – relax and allow your mind to focus on a verse that was meaningful to you.
• There is no right way to do this – you simply need to offer yourself.

So… are you desperate?
Let me know what you do to create space and time to hear from God.

Helpful Books:

Invitation to Silence & Solitude – Ruth Haley Barton
Sacred Rhythms – Ruth Haley Barton
The Gift of Being Yourself – David Benner


One thought on “I’m Desperate!

  1. katie says:

    Great observations, all of them, Karen!  I’m so right there with you!  Even beyond the honesty of trying to carve out some time to just be still and listen (or like my darling grama used to say “shut up and listen!”) how quickly is that devoted desperation interrupted by the habits of this world.  Satan sure likes to disturb us and he knows how easily we can be distracted.  More than once I have pushed back my waking time only to spend more time with our Beloved.  Then something fills that slot instead, and knowing I have to get to work, hurry up and fill that slot with more time to prepare, pack a lunch, run some laundry, fill the dishwasher – why can’t I just push those things aside and just meditate on His Voice and His direction?  How sweet His words are in my ears and how I relish His whispers.  The promise of that elixir surely should prompt me to crave more…..but the world around us so demanding.  And back into the pit I fall.  I guess we’re all “hopelessly flawed” as a young Jo Marks put it in “Little Women”.  However, the promise of a verse, when meditated on for any length of time, offers true and deeper clarity into the heart of God’s promises for us.  I need to pray every morning for a margin of time that I can honor Him in being still and listening.  
    Thanks for the remind, Karen, it’s something I’ve looked forward to with great desperation.  xo – katie  

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